Can't Wait For Tomorrow!

Is it possible to be so happy one moment and within seconds be overcome with an unbearable sadness?  It was Wednesday....

It all started with a visit to my "rock star" plastic surgeon.  He has done an amazing job with the girls and it was time for a check-up so he could see how they recovered from radiation.  They did great!  Surgery is scheduled for August, although I did my best to talk him into a shorter wait period.  Guess even though on the outside I look fine my body is still healing on the inside and I have to give it time to recover from the abuse.  So we (yes Rocky wouldn't have missed this appointment for anything) looked at some implants, would you believe they not only have different sizes but different profiles?  I won't go into details but will say I was absolutely giddy at the thought of saying goodbye to the two footballs I've been toting around in my chest for the past 5-months. 

It seemed like life was looking up and so near perfect that I could have cried tears of happiness.

Then...I read the obituaries, and that is when the punch in the stomach happened.  When the wind came out of my sails.  There are four of us (maybe there are more but I don't know of them) in the area who have fought triple-negative cancer and now there are three.  A very dear lady lost her battle Tuesday.  As happens w/Triple Negative it reared its ugly head again and this time spread so fast I guess there was no stopping it.  I knew she was fighting but didn't know how bad it was, so her death was a shock and another wake-up call that life is precious.  I cried (ok maybe it was sobbed) for her husband who had told me a few months ago how much he loved her and how she was his best friend, I cried for her son and daughter and how they will not have a Mom to share their joys and sorrows with, I cried for her and how she will never see her daughter get married or hold a grandchild.  And to be honest I cried for me, I don't want to be the next obituary in the paper.  I want to be the one who wins this battle.

The moral of the story is every moment is a gift and we make choices what we do with that gift.  I'm enjoying every second of my gift and will continue to do so until God decides he has other plans for me.  I don't want to waste a second on the petty stuff and believe me I've spent a lot of time and energy in the past over the petty stuff, not anymore.  I can't wait for tomorrow!  I can't wait to see my friends tomorrow and give them a big hug.  I can't wait to hear my daughters voice on the radio tomorrow.  I can't wait to see my fellow Lions and enjoy their fellowship tomorrow. I can't wait to see my co-workers tomorrow.  I can't wait to talk with Chamber members tomorrow.  I can't wait to spend another day with my husband. I can't wait to wake up in the morning and welcome a brand new day.